Well, I haven't actually had the balls to post anything up here yet.   Its sort of daunting, trying to sort myself out, and my dreams, and my hopes for my kids future ...

My daughter, yesterday had a rough day, she was feeling sad for three reasons.  One being she had to take a bath.  Two, I threw away two of her rubber ducky bath toys, and three, being the most heartbreaking, she misses her Daddy.  Now, her daddy, is not a nice man, but I cannot deny the bond they share.   The love they share.  I currently do not know where her dad lives, as he refuses to divulge that info...  He pays no child support, he has been in prison, and jail during my daughters short life.  He has missed so much.  Yet, she misses him. 

I also have to explain a new girlfriend, and that is where I believe her Dad to be living, that he has moved from the only home of his she knew.   The tears fell into the bathwater, and I could see everything on her face.  How she doesn't understand so much, yet everything she feels! How it hurts her that he isnt living with her... how it hurts her that I, and her Dad cannot live together....that we fight horribly, and violently.    

I pray for her.  I pray for me, that I (and my awesome family) can provide her the stability she needs to thrive.. The love, we got covered.